64 things I wish someone had told me about grief

A not so happy subject this one, but one which people don’t talk about. Grief. Loss. Bereavement.

Over the last two years far too many people I love have died – close friends and family.  There have been times when I have longed to be able to talk to a friend, just to say this is happening, this is how I feel. Not to get an answer, a solution, but just to briefly get support, someone who hears what I say, who understands, who offers friendship.  What I have learned is that friends let you down.  Not out of malice but because – I’m guessing – they can’t deal with it, they don’t know what to say.  This compounds the hurt.

I did however find this website with a list entitled “64 things I wish someone had told me about grief”. This. Yes, this.  Everyone going through grief, loss, bereavement should be shown this.



Pistachio Shortbread

This is one of those recipes which turns out differently every time I make it.  Today I actually thought it would be a fail (jinxed by last week?). But no, it worked.  I got the recipe from one of the fabulous series of publications by Australian Women’s Weekly – this one entitled “Wicked Sweet Indulgences”.  How could I resist with a title like that?!


This is where I admit I neither like, nor dislike pistachios.  But I love their pink and green colour. Well, that’s me, shallow to a T.  Show me a pretty colour and I’m yours!

Remember not to play with your food……………


This recipe contains – apart from cake flour – rice flour, cornflour and ground almonds.  These help create a lovely, light, crumbly texture.

Beat together butter and icing sugar until light and fluffy.

Add the flour, cornflour, rice flour and ground almonds.


Mix in the chopped toasted pistachios, spoon onto the baking trays in mounds and bake.


I was supposed to keep aside some pistachios to place on the top of the shortbread before baking, but I threw them all into the mixture.  Sometimes you just have to!!

Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, I wish you a peaceful day 🙂


Cheese Scones

Before you read any further, I must warn you, this is a baking fail. Not a fail as in everyone who ate my cheese scones died a long slow agonising death….but a fail as in lack of baking success. The scones are perfectly edible, we are all still alive and healthy (relatively so anyway……) but they did not turn out the way I hoped they would. This happens.


I have a go-to scone recipe which I use all the time. It is quick, easy, the scones are light, I’ve adapted it for sweet or savoury and it always works.  The recipe uses oil instead of butter and this results in a wetter dough, which can’t be neatly cut and shaped, but instead is dolloped from a spoon onto the baking tray.  But, looks aren’t everything!

I do from time to time wish however, that my scones looked beautiful and neat.  To do that I would need to use a different recipe.  One which uses butter, and the “rubbing in” method.  After a lengthy consultation with Aunty Google, I chose a recipe for cheese scones which had the word “ultimate” in their title.  Well, there’s a promise!

My only deviation from the recipe was to use less cheese – yes, even I can’t believe I did that.  The quantity seemed to much, and I cut it by a third.  I am glad I did, as I cannot see how the extra cheese could have worked at all.

I did the “rubbing in” bit, but, life is too short really to “rub in”, isn’t it.  So I used my handy tool equivalent (what on earth is it called? I haven’t a clue).


Once the required breadcrumb texture had been achieved, I mixed in the grated cheese and the milk.  I began to panic….this didn’t look enough. 12 to 16 scones the recipe said….the dough was very dry and I had to add a bit more milk.  I was worried I’d add too much milk and the dough would be too wet, and I’d feel I’d have to add more flour….and, you know how it goes, we’ve all been there!

Finally I managed to get the dough to come together enough that I could pat it out on a board and cut out my scones.


Now those (don’t look at the cracks please!) look nice and neat.  But I only managed to get 10 (medium size) scones out of the dough.  12 to 16 would have been teeny tiny midget scones…. and into the oven they went.

The colour looked fine…..but…BUT…they didn’t rise much.  Why? Baking fail alert!!!  I cut one open – very thin halves because of the lack of rise.  It looked – in my opinion – to be okay texture-wise, it was light, not heavy.  I didn’t bake bricks!  Was there still too much cheese?  I will definitely try this style recipe again, but I’ll source another recipe to see if it makes any difference.


Still, the taste is right – lovely mature cheddar, fresh warm scone, cold salty butter….

Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, I wish you a peaceful day 🙂

Blueberry Pancakes with Bacon and Maple Syrup

Some mornings only pancakes will do. Those lovely thick American style pancakes.  Combine them with a mixture of salty and sweet…..what more could you want!

I used the fabulous Nigella Lawson’s recipe for American Breakfast Pancakes from “How to be a Domestic Goddess” as the base.

These pancakes are comforting, satisfying, and when feeding a horde of hungry people are a useful fall-back.  I love them accompanied by crisp bacon and lashings of maple syrup. Salty-sweet heaven.

Sometimes, however, in the interests of healthy eating – 5-a-day and all that – I like to throw in a little something else.  Sweetcorn works very well, but today I used blueberries.


Put the bacon under the grill and cook to your preference.  I like my bacon really crisp.  I mean REALLY crisp! And whilst that is happening, blitz the batter in a blender or with an electric whisk.  I substitute a glug of sunflower oil for the butter in the recipe and find it works just as well.

Throw in the blueberries, or sweetcorn, or leave as is and let it rest for a while before dropping spoonfuls in a pan and cooking.


And, finally, sit down and enjoy!


Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, I wish you a peaceful weekend 🙂

Meringues (egg-free)

The word of the day is aquafaba. Yes, that slimy liquid in a can of chickpeas or beans.  It is magic, that stuff!  We’ll swiftly gloss over my previous failure using this liquid to make an egg-free chocolate mousse….and move on the one recipe I’ve had continued success with: meringues. And, what’s not to like about a meringue!! Especially one with no eggs.  NO EGGS!  Yes, my hatred of egg continues.

And so, to the meringues. Drain a can of chickpeas – you’ll need 120ml of the liquid. Of course you’re going to make hummus with the chickpeas rather than throw them away, aren’t you.


Now, have patience and watch the liquid transform, you’ll think it won’t, but it will …..use an electric whisk, you’ll thank me (it takes a while to whisk….)

Whisk until soft peaks form and then slowly whisk in 100g caster sugar, a bit at a time until the whole lot is incorporated and you have a lovely shiny stiff mixture….


This can be spooned or piped on to a baking tray lined with baking paper.  I like to pipe them because it makes me feel posh! You’ll need 2 trays, this will make about 40 small meringues. Bake at 90°C (fan oven) for about 1h30 – or till the meringues lift easily off the baking paper.  Leave to cool.


They are fine as they are, but I like to dip their bottoms in chocolate for a bit of extra oomph.

I used Lindt Raspberry Intense for a bit of tang. Once the meringues have cooled, dip their bases in the chocolate and leave to let the chocolate set.  Patience is a virtue.  Don’t forget to lick the bowl afterwards (cook’s prerogative)


And, at last…..egg-free meringues.  Store in an air tight container.  Do not put in the fridge!

Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, I wish you a peaceful weekend 🙂




Sponge Cake with Cassis Syrup and Raspberry Buttercream


I don’t often bake a plain sponge cake – cupcakes, yes, but a big cake no.  My larger cakes tend to be flavoured – lemon drizzle, coffee & walnut, chocolate…..and so today I tried a plain sponge cake.  Except in the end it was not plain. I did a few little tweaks.  Yes, you knew I would, didn’t you!  However, today is the day I wished I had left well enough alone.  I wished I had just followed the recipe.


I do love, love, love this Nielsen-Massey vanilla bean paste.  I only ever use vanilla extract if I can’t get hold of this.  The lovely little specs of vanilla seed just add to its magic.

Eggs.  The necessary evil of baking.  I’ve mentioned before that raw eggs are revolting.

And, so on to the baking.  The recipe I used is for a vanilla sponge, and one of its ingredients is Greek yogurt. I chose this particular one in the hope that it would give a nice moist sponge.  I found the recipe on the BBC Good Food website.

I didn’t want a plain cake, it would have to have icing.  Whilst it was baking in the oven I got to thinking….maybe a syrup drizzled over the cake before the icing would give it a little extra oomph.  I chose Cassis, that divine blackcurrant liqueur as the base of the syrup. Framboise would have been better , but I had none, and so Cassis it was.

I got a bit concerned a third of the way during the baking that things might not go well, the cake was already well risen and golden on top.  But I gritted my teeth and after peering through the oven door nervously for the rest of the baking time, I took the cake out at its allotted time.  The top is cracked.  To be honest, a lot cracked! And slightly crispy.  I’m thinking too much sugar in the batter?


However, one of the joys of icing a cake is that it covers a multitude of sins.  I made the Cassis syrup and poured it over the cake, then left it to cool before covering it with icing I made a raspberry flavoured buttercream, and threw some lovely sprinkles over the top.  A pink cake after all has to have a little bit of sparkle, doesn’t it!

The true test however, is in the eating. Crunchy top aside, the cake is fine.  A Framboise syrup would have been better, but the Cassis does work.  The buttercream has a delicate, rather than in-your-face raspberry flavour – and although it doesn’t show in the photo it is pale pink.  Would I make it again? Probably not, just because I can’t see anywhere to go with it.  Does that make sense? I think there would be better versions of the cake, and whilst this is fine – my kitchen taster enjoyed it – it just doesn’t work well enough for me – even if I were to come up with a few more tweaks!!  Live and learn!

Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, I hope you have a peaceful day 🙂